The Kit Kat Jam

[Yep, this life version has lyrics unlike the one on the album 'Busted Stuff']

Now, as I'm writing this sentence I ask myself: Have I ever written so much in a day?! The answer is obviously no. I know I need to let it all out and somehow feel an urge to write, write and write untill my fingers bleed or my head explodes. In english. I feel like writing in english, not in my mother language. Why?! I don't even have a clue...I feel so confortable writing in english, it feels like such a sweet escape, the ideas simply come flooding in from my head to my fingers and it's all in english.

This is the closest I've got to having a diary with no worries about getting tired and ending up with my fingers all fucked up before I end up writing what I desire to write. I like it this way and shall keep it this way. I shan't [sweetest contraction ever *_*] show it to the world. Only to a few of the closest friends, if so. I like it as it is, perfectly hidden and safe.

I've been hearing "Kit Kat Jam" over and over and it's pure love...pure fascination. Though I enjoy listening to those sweet jams [that aren't exactly spontaneous but are still sweet] on the BTCS's album after each track [and I do love them a lot] they're so short it makes me feel like begging for more. I love jammings in all kind of music [except when it involves rap, hip-hop or really heavy metal]. I think being able to make a good jamming truly shows the artist a certain group of musicians are. Each musician as a say, as a sentence to tell us and does it through music, absolutly brilliant.


Once my ballet teacher told me that music is like a chat. It's about getting the sentence, each musical sentence has something to say, some new argument to bring to the conversation, whether it's between lovers, friends or simple monologues. Music is talking to us all by itself. The musician is trying to tell us something and we better listen. That's why I love jammings, it's not a chat that's already written but something that they want to say at the moment. Some people find live jammings completely boring because they simply want the singer to be singing the lyrics they've known. I like jammings, I think they really show the quality of the artist and the purity of music.

I still have a lot to learn but i'm willing to learn more about good music (:

Auf Wiedersehen everybody!! ;D

[just one more Регина Спектор's photo...]

There must be some kind of way out of here...

(said the joker to the thief) - All Along The Watchtower, Jimi Hendrix.


Регина Спектор [a.k.a. Regina Spektor in russian] is absolute love




Most of my fandoms I cannot blame anyone for but I can surely blame my mother for making me love anything that's russian. Who told her to keep teaching little russian words to a 8 year-old daughter curious and hungry for learning foreign languages?! I grew up loving russia, and the result? Regina Spektor. She's got the personality, the originality, the russian roots...for God's sake! She's got a song sang in english and russian and it's title is in french!!! That's pure fandom for a girl who loves learning new languages and has a facinastion with Russia... That should be a crime!

On top of it all, she just makes you love her, immediately. Plus, she plays the piano...am I feeling that will to play it again?! Wait...oh...wait....ah...Yes I am! She makes me miss it and like it all over again. I mean...WOW, this woman is awesome.

Anyways, my search for the way out of this emotion confusion seems to be something between russian words, riding bikes, some alone time to simply think and Regina Spektor. So far it seems like a good mixture.

I sometimes go on and on thinking how stupidily I've behaved or how foolish such words came out of my lips. I can simply conclude that I'm foolish. As simple and plain as that, I'm foolish. I know I "shouldn't" feel that way and that everybody gets something wrong sometimes but...doesn't really seem as it's only sometimes to me. Lack of self-esteem shit again...Kind of tired of it, to be true.

It's simply so much emotionally that I seem like hormone city [NOTE: Cassandra's quote about Rose's feelings towards The Doctor <3.>Extremely excited fangirl!!!]. I need a little break from these love emotions...it's begining to ruin everything around me. How?! How can I simply push it away?!

Anyhow, I'm done for today...Just one more Регина Спектор's picture. (a really known one but...who fucking cares?!)

Хорошая ночь!! (; [a.k.a. russian good night (: ]