How many times have we got to handle others' confidences? After others tell us they don't need us, why are we still there when something goes wrong? Why us? If your friends don't want your opinion about their relationship with person X or Y, then why? Why do they even bother calling us in the middle of the night crying? Why even bother?
I told them I wouldn't have a say about that subject because they didn't want me to. Though suddently I have to help them and still have the patience to hear them after warning them? I'm sorry?! NOOOOTTTTT!
We should actually answer: "Go f**** yourself!". At least I should have done it sometime today...
*re-reads the last written sentence* It is official. I am angry, furious, I wanna kill someone in anger. I'm in an angry mood because I just don't like people and have no patience to even care about their insignificant problems. When will they get it?! I just don't care if you broke up with that boyfriend/girlfriend I've always hated! I just don't care if you have argued with person H or I! I JUST DON'T F****** CARE!!
Seriously, those people shouldn't bother to talk if they know I'm eventually going to tell them to piss off. Why do people even bother?
I like to keep things simple, basic and full of honesty. I'm complicated enough all by myself. I need things to be easy, to let it flow.
There are 3 top and really special bands in my life. I have learned from their lyrics that I should just live for today, love for today, enjoy today as much as possible and have patience about the rest, A LOT of patience. Incredibly enough, I'm finding it hard to get to the last one. Patience is a virtue but it is not easy to reach.
I try to go on singing "Patience" from Guns N' Roses. However patience is one thing that actually lacks in me.
Why worry about the future and throw today away?! That's why I love Dave Matthews Band's songs, tell us to just celebrate for now.
I mean, now...isn't now anymore, I'm thinking now but right now that now is already past. Time is not a defined line. Time is a tricky bastard. Oh, seriously and I'm actually wasting time on this....[not that I bother talking about time lines or anything science fiction/physics related]
I'm trying not to kill anyone for today with this lack of patience and angry mood. I'll go back to writing whenever I feel like it, no restrictions, just going with the flow... And this is how I like my life to be. Simple, fun, relaxing, enjoying every single bit. :)
04 August 2009
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