There must be some kind of way out of here...

(said the joker to the thief) - All Along The Watchtower, Jimi Hendrix.


Регина Спектор [a.k.a. Regina Spektor in russian] is absolute love




Most of my fandoms I cannot blame anyone for but I can surely blame my mother for making me love anything that's russian. Who told her to keep teaching little russian words to a 8 year-old daughter curious and hungry for learning foreign languages?! I grew up loving russia, and the result? Regina Spektor. She's got the personality, the originality, the russian roots...for God's sake! She's got a song sang in english and russian and it's title is in french!!! That's pure fandom for a girl who loves learning new languages and has a facinastion with Russia... That should be a crime!

On top of it all, she just makes you love her, immediately. Plus, she plays the piano...am I feeling that will to play it again?! Wait...oh...wait....ah...Yes I am! She makes me miss it and like it all over again. I mean...WOW, this woman is awesome.

Anyways, my search for the way out of this emotion confusion seems to be something between russian words, riding bikes, some alone time to simply think and Regina Spektor. So far it seems like a good mixture.

I sometimes go on and on thinking how stupidily I've behaved or how foolish such words came out of my lips. I can simply conclude that I'm foolish. As simple and plain as that, I'm foolish. I know I "shouldn't" feel that way and that everybody gets something wrong sometimes but...doesn't really seem as it's only sometimes to me. Lack of self-esteem shit again...Kind of tired of it, to be true.

It's simply so much emotionally that I seem like hormone city [NOTE: Cassandra's quote about Rose's feelings towards The Doctor <3.>Extremely excited fangirl!!!]. I need a little break from these love emotions...it's begining to ruin everything around me. How?! How can I simply push it away?!

Anyhow, I'm done for today...Just one more Регина Спектор's picture. (a really known one but...who fucking cares?!)

Хорошая ночь!! (; [a.k.a. russian good night (: ]