There are great exceptions

There are people we don't have the patience to care enough to reply or say anything at all when a friendship is dying. There are people who are worth every single effort because there's something building that's worth saving. The second kind of people are exceptions, great exceptions.

A 4 hour talk in a mall with V. Nothing actually felt more perfect than that. The subjects just kept coming out and they were so true, they came from deep inside from both sides. I told her things I never thought I'd ever tell to anyone. Old feelings, recent feelings. It's almost odd how things just clicked together, subjects just came, we let our feelings come out and it was just it, two of us letting all out, talking, supporting. Just it, no complications, no dramas. Just it. I know it's a day I won't ever forget and it's life changing.

My life it's all so confusing and blur but suddently this was clear, was that and I knew it was calling me to change to getting out, to saying what I mean. I mean...I seriously never thought I'd tell some stuff to anyone at all and there they were...coming out of my mouth. Most of the things that were said there I'm not even able to repeat 'cause the moment, the words coming out. The most wonderful evening of understanding, hearing, friendship. That was...it.

I finally felt free of worries, simple, understood most of all. I know I still haven't found myself in so many ways but now I know I will. I know we will get it, get a long sucessful life. I always knew she would but the words escaped me, they just flew at the right moments. I have changed and whoever truly knows me, knows I did. I'm not big into words nowadays, not the one's with some feeling, anyhow. I have changed and I'm better at my own eyes but when shall I know I am effectively better?! Never, I guess. I can't see me as an outsider but I can get true friends now and that really, really makes all sense. That's all I need for now.

As I see it, I'm going to do what I think is best, I'm going to be absolutly true to myself. Things will come out if there's a need for them to come out. The rest will crash into life naturally. I will keep on working hard, fighting but without much worries. Just letting it flow. I have found one great friends, 2 years ago. I know I have true friends. I have that, it's all I need. Thank you V with all the words there are and a few more. She gets me, no words needed, no dramas, it's just it. I like keeping things simple and living life. That's it, highly important: living life as it is for now.

"Eat, drink and be merry for tomorrow we will die"

Enjoying everyday as if it's the last one but yet, not ignoring the future. Yesterday afternoon/night I had a blast and ...it was spechless. That's all that really matters. (: